derrick - 2006-12-13 16:24:33
I never really got the whole suicidal death wish thing until my best friend passed away back in June 2001. For a long time after that I couldn't stop imagining, even hoping for the time when I would be next. Although I never gone so far as attempted suicide, I've spent countless nights wishing I would die in my sleep so I wouldn't have to deal with tomorrow and cursing fate each time I had to deal with another day. It's been more than 5 years since then and although my death wish isn't as intense as it used to be, I find that it creeps up on me every so often...
Jayme - 2006-12-13 21:29:10
My sweet little crazy bipolar girl, I love you... that's it, I just love you. :)
Me - 2006-12-14 11:40:42
derrick, I understand how you feel. I've lost some loved ones too, sometimes tragically, sometimes unexpectedly, sometimes naturally. What helps me is to try to live my life in way that if they're watching, they can get a vicarious thrill. If you ever need to talk, if you feel as though you want to tell someone new how awesome your friend was, or how awesome your pain is, I'm here. You can do so publicly, of course through comments and whatnot, or you can email me. You should be able to do that from my page.
derrick - 2006-12-15 12:37:19
Thank you, I'll keep that in mind. The door is open the other way too if you ever need to talk about stuff. :)

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